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Awakening the Dragon

There are few things more disheartening than looking back at how long it’s been since you last posted on a blog you put so much work into. Of course, I never meant it to be so long, perhaps a few months, no more. But things happened, and for a long time, I wasn’t sure I wanted to continue the blog, and if I did, in what form it would continue.

The great news is that I have decided to continue – for reasons that will soon become obvious. (more…)

The Great Taste Sensation

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I’ve always loved my vegies. I know, weird, huh? I was lucky to grow up with a mother who didn’t boil the crap out of them before forcing us to consume half-cold, grey tasteless mashy stuff on a daily basis. Instead, she cooked us honey carrots, zucchini with garlic and butter, cauliflower cheese, broccoli and green beans in white wine and garlic. The list goes on. The point is, the vegies tasted fantastic, so we ate them up. But I’ve recently discovered something unexpected while making meals on my diet and it’s changed my eating habits forever. (more…)

Losing Momentum

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I’ve been here before and I can tell you I hated it then, and I hate it now. It’s not so much a fail position as a No-Man’s-Land. I’m suspended on a high-wire, neither running smoothly nor crashed and burned – but I can see the crash site from here as I dangle, ungainly and unc0-ordinated.

The last three weeks have been hard work. Hard in that in my head, I’m going to do better each day but the reality is far from better and way closer to worse. I haven’t given up – haven’t even come close. I haven’t even considered giving up, which is the strong thread I’m holding onto at the moment.

I knew this would happen. I knew I’d get to the point where it would all start to fall apart, but I thought that I’d taken enough steps to prevent it this time. But now, as I look back over the last 7.5 weeks, I know full-well that I didn’t take many steps at all. I meant to, I wanted to, but I didn’t. I never got around to doing all the things I’d meant to do and now I’m suffering from it. (more…)

Resistance Support

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I’ve lost count the number of times when I’ve heard ‘weight loss experts’ wax on about how you just need a little willpower to resist temptation. I’ve got more willpower than I know what to do with. I’ve got myself down and up the Grand Canyon in a single day, I’ve hiked for 7 days straight in Nepal at altitude, while fighting off a chest infection and an undiagnosed and un-treated bout of Graves disease, the symptoms of which include exhaustion and muscle weakness, and I’ve written five full-length novels against all odds. I may as well legally change my middle names to Persistence, Determination and Willpower  for all the difference it makes. So I find it infinitely irritating that people think staying on a diet is all about willpower, when anybody who’s ever been on a diet knows that willpower has nothing to do with it after the first couple of days. (more…)

Resisting Resistance

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On Tuesday night I found myself sitting on the couch, eating MacDonalds for dinner, for the second night in a row. This was, I should point out, a strange and unwelcome experience for me. (more…)

Being Precious

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There is nothing in this world so easy as failing a diet. It takes no effort at all. Sometimes, no more than a thought will push you over to the Dark Side, and calories are instantly converted to pounds of unwilling, globulous fat. (more…)

Hardly a Diet

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When we think about a diet these days, we all have the same image of celery sticks, dry biscuits and lettuce leaves: tasteless food and an endless feeling of hunger. A constant feeling of being dissatisfied and wanting more. And the unending desperation to eat something solid and substantial. I’d like to say that these kinds of diets are well out of fashion but alas, there are some out there that still treat the body this badly.

The studies done into ‘deprivation dieting’ (which is what the above description… er, describes) have proven one fact above all else – when you deprive your body in such a way, you both decrease your metabolic rate (because your body thinks starvation time has come around again) and increase your subconscious need to binge eat. These are both unconscious, physiological body responses to a sudden and sustained lack of food. These responses are genetically built into us and were what helped our ancient ancestors to survive fammine. What they are not, is any help to losing weight. (more…)

To Boldly Go

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So, hard on the heels of my last post, I thought I’d set down a few details of exactly what I’m going to do to lose weight. Now don’t get all excited and start taking notes 🙂 – these are just the first few small steps. This plan will change and evolve as I go along, as I learn what works and what doesn’t. At the moment, that’s a key element – I want to avoid that whole ‘ repeating actions that don’t get me the results I want’ thing, by making changes as I go.

The basic plan for the first week is pretty simple. I am going to use the CSIRO Total Wellbeing Diet. I know I’ve spent plenty of words trashing all things diet, but there are a few that aren’t all evil. This is one of them. It’s a high-ish protein, controlled carbohydrate diet that has been scientifically proven to help people lose weight when they carry most of their weight around the middle. Which is me. (more…)

What do you do when…

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What do you do when you want to lose weight but have absolutely no confidence that you can? Or that any effort, no matter how bold or determined will inevitably end up failing?

No, seriously, I’m asking the question because I hope somebody has a better answer than the two I’ve come up with – either give up, or try again.

The problem with trying again is that after a few attempts, you know it’s going to fail, even before you start. And the problem with that is that if you go in assuming you’ll fail, you will! It’s called a self-fullfilling prophecy. Either way, I end up not losing weight and facing the prospect of question number one all over again. (more…)

A small change in direction

I wanted to start this post with some brilliant observation about life that would completely sum up the last few months in a sentence or two, and thereby relieve me of the need to explain why I haven’t posted much recently. Unfortunately, brilliance is missing from my brain this morning, and instead, I’m just left with the explanation, and an apology.

When I started this blog, I’d wanted it to be a place where all sorts of weight-related ideas and issues could be explored. But before that, I’d also wanted the blog to be a record in a way, of my own journey. Don’t worry – I know full-well what a blog cliche that is. 🙂 For me, however, my own journey is really where all the other stuff comes from. I have a weight problem, and in an attempt to conquer it, I have tried to learn as much about it as possible. Wanting to share what I learned was an automatic next-step for me. (more…)